2008-04-01T08:16:00.000-07:00

deep down inside i alwis know i can do it again. a lot of pple doubted me and questioned if i can do it one more time. consistent puffing on cigarettes for a yr and a half n the lost of interest in running means that i no longer have the fitness level i used to possess. gone were the days when i could acty chased after buses and ran up stairs without feelin out of breath. but today it all changed. somehow or rather the voice inside me -the one that keeps tellin me that i can stil run like the wind- reared its head yesterday. time after time i shut myself off frm that thought as i felt defeated even before i started out on my quest. but this time i decided to gif it one last shot to c if i stil has what it takes and if i m really the 'talented runner' my peers used to tell me.

my darling promised me she will stand by me on the track to take my timing today for a 2-lap run. not those runs that simply requires joggin leisurely but a high-intensive 800metres time trial to c how badly i've fallen thru these few years. i knew i had to gif it my best shot this time to show myself and to the world that i can stil do it after the falls. i packed in my hwachong competition attire and spike shoes this morning -the very same set of attire that i wore when i set my record in jc- and headed to sch.

at ard 5pm and accompanied by my darling i reached my sch's track at SRC. she set me a timing of 2:30 to complete the 2-laps trial and it wasnt hard to c y due to my fitness levels. even my cross country capt in my jc days told me that 2:30 wld b quite hard to achieve as i had nt trained for almost 2 yrs. but i was determined. unlike the previous races and trials that i had taken part in durin my sec sch n jc days i feel that i needed this trial to convince myself.

aft a bout of stretchin n striding practices i took some long deep breaths n look at the track. memories of how i won my many trophies and how fast i once ran came floodin to my mind. one thing stuck in my mind. the 'eye of the tiger'. throughout my track career in sec sch n jc i haf been reminded many times that the willpower and mental strength is the most impt for an athelete. when the soul is broken the body will nt b able to push anymore. i fixed my eyes on the track and then proceeded to close my eyes. i m goin to do it this time and surprise my darling. i open my eyes n looked at her n felt comforted by her presence. now its time...

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